i wrote this journal entry yesterday in my personal journal so hopefully that explains my entry not matching up with the date! i did put an update for today’s date here and there. sorry i dragged my feet on getting it posted over here!
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i have a pre-natal appointment today at 2:50 with a midwife.

i’m really looking forward to it because i would like to get an idea where i’m at right now. i know that i’ve been feeling contractions and strange pains/sensations daily but i don’t really know that they mean anything as far as if a baby will be coming anytime soon and it’s driving me kind of crazy to say the very least. it will be good to, hopefully, get some answers, though!!! hopefully the midwife will have no problem giving me an exam to check on my progress…or lack there of.
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i’ve been sparatically craving bazooka joe bubble gum. remember that stuff?? i can’t even remember the last time i saw it in the store!!

according to countdown, little man should be here in nine days. NINE DAYS. crazy to think of the possibility. and yes, yes, yes, i’m fully aware, dreading, and even preparing myself for the possibility that he could (and will more than likely, considering my luck) come later than nine days but i’m really hoping that he doesn’t!!!

dear august:

love,
mommy

t-minus thirteen days– FREAK OUT!

tonight, while rubbing some palmer’s on my belly, i noticed a little stretch mark toward the bottom of my belly on the right hand side. when i went to show mark, he also noticed a couple more right below that one.

you can actually see them in the belly shots i took right before noticing them! i’ve uploaded them to my last entry (WEEKLY UPDATE 36/37) btw.

thankfully, they are just on the one side for now (the side where skittle likes to settle) and they are pretty faint sooo let’s just hope that’s the worst of ‘em. i’m glad i’m nearing the end!

ironically, i’m not too disappointed about them. they’re a neat reminder of this time…and what my body went through to bring my son into this world. kind of like battle scars. of course, I’ve got to make this look as “pretty” as possible since i’m kind of stuck with them should they choose not to fade.

How far along are you?
37W5D.

What symptoms are you experiencing?
- heartburn if i don’t eat something every three-four hours.
- swollen feet/ankles if i sit on my legs the wrong way or am on them for too long.
- stretch marks!

How are you feeling?
i am actually feeling pretty good. mark and i have been spending LOTS of time together trying to do little things that we know won’t be as easy to do once august is born. yesterday, he took me to the santa cruz boardwalk which was really, really fun. we had a great time just being “silly kids” before we have our own silly kid.

God must’ve known i needed an afternoon/evening like that because even though i was wearing some normally uncomfy flip flops, my feet and legs didn’t bother me AT ALL…and we were there for over four hours just walking around and eating foods that aren’t so good for us!

we’ve also got to spend lots of time taking advantage of the peace and quiet that we know might be harder to come by in the coming weeks. and we’ve just spent that time talking about our marriage, soon to be growing family, and life.

even though i am so excited to have this baby, it has made this one-on-one time with mark pretty bittersweet in knowing that the spontaneity we share won’t be as accessible and not for awhile once august is born. but i am so overwhelmingly thankful we’ve been given this time to just enjoy and know one another. i know that there are going to be things that come up that we are totally unprepared for but i am feeling pretty confident about this foundation that God has formed and is still forming between mark and i. it makes me feel pretty good and at peace about whatever may come our way.

Any doctor’s appointments this week and how did they go?
i had an appt. with the midwife last wednesday. it went pretty well. i wrote all about it here.

i’ll be going back in for another visit next wednesday. and, after that, they say will be when they’ll have me coming in every week. of course, by then, there hopefully won’t be more than one “every week” visit seeing as i would be 40 weeks by then, but oh well. i guess it’s not a bad thing that they don’t see it necessary to see me as often.

Anything big going on in your personal life (family, work related, moving, etc)?
haha, THIS. my belly. aside from the pregnancy, not really. we’re just enjoying being able to take it easy these last few weeks.

Any questions?
not so much a question as a prayer request for patience and peace as we make this transition. i am confident that God has readied us for this and know He wouldn’t put anything in our life that we couldn’t handle, BUT it doesn’t mean that i am not nervous. not even so much about the birthing process…it’s just the not knowing when it’s going to happen…and not sure how i am going to feel once it begins.

i also feel excited but a bit anxious because we have a few loved ones coming in through out the month of august and at very random times…when august can come at any random time. as much as i want to be the perfect host that can be energetic, spontaneous, and accomodating so that everyone feels comfortable and like they had a good visit, i feel somewhat overwhelmed because i feel like it’s so out of my control and i am battling with feeling responsible and guilty for that. i guess prayer that i am able to just find peace in this area would be really, really appreciated.

Any belly pictures?
yes.
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i wrote about this in my personal journal several days ago and have hesitated posting about it in here incase it was nothing. and well, it kind of really was nothing as august is still snug as a bug inside my belly but i’ve still decided to post it here any way. for the record.
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mark and i had our pre-natal appointment earlier today and everything looked good.
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this morning i woke up with what felt like it could be a contraction that seemed to last for atleast five or so minutes. i say “contraction” because, that whole time, my stomach was pretty hard and there was pain. and not pain from trying to reposition the wrong way or get out of bed, but pain just by laying on my side. it would get even more intense if i tried to move and switch sides to accomodate what i hoped was just skittle’s weird positioning. this isn’t the first time i’ve gotten this. i, maybe, get the painful like contractions one to three times a day and, the rest of the day, it seems all i have to do is look at my stomach and i get the more commonly explained painless braxton hicks contraction that are merely tightening but without the pain.
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even though i have been nesting on and off the past couple of months, i feel like i have entered it full force this past week. i want everything and i mean everything out of its box and package and set up or put in its appropriate spot. everything from the boppy and bouncer seat to the diaper champ that only took about two seconds to set up. the bumbo seat is still in its box and i swear i have been eyeing it nervously, everytime i pass the room it is in, waiting to rip it out of its box and just set it out even though i know that it won’t be a little while before august is actually able to support himself enough to use it.
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